My First Relationship

by Vikas
(Pune, India)

I hate relationships now.

That's because my first relationship left me a bitter taste in my mouth. When I was in the college, I started liking a girl. I don't know why but my heartbeats went faster whenever I saw her anywhere.

After sometime we happened to talk to each other. We became friends. She easily sensed that I was harboring soft feelings for her, but she pretended to be ignorant regarding that.

We made it a point that no one would ever interfere in our relationship. We started spending more time with each other; like we used to sit on the same bench in the classroom, and also ate food together. I mean we, together, made a world of our own to live. We both had other friends also, but we never got time to spend with them. This is how I started my first relationship with the first girl in my life.

After sometime, I don't know what happened and why, we started fighting with each other, perhaps because we started taking each other for granted; but we never ended our relations. This was because we both had gone possessive for each other by now. I never allowed her to go with any male friend of hers, and the same did she! And if she talked to someone, I kept a watch on her. Slowly and gradually we got fed up of each other so much that we couldn't even tolerate each other. But I was so possessive for her that I couldn't let her go anywhere else.

Finally she left me and started spending time with some other guy. I couldn't tolerate it so I started smoking and drinking in the college only. I forgot everything; even I was left with no concern about my studies. I started spending time with my new friends. I was badly hurt by her action. My first relationship in my life had proved an utter failure.

One day after drinking, I went to her classroom and started abusing her. What happened then that some guys stood up and tried to control me until I went unconscious and fainted there only!

Later I realized how selfish I had gone. I apologized to that girl and promised her that I wouldn't come in her way anymore. I made it a point that I should concentrate on my studies rather than wasting my time on such emotional stupidities. Now I don't make relations anymore. Neither I think about nor do I talk sentimental crap to anyone.